Sadness...

No Life today
Its just a memory
Rolled up in hate and anger
Spark up like a lit flare
Some say life is what we make it
Well i say that my life is shit
An easy solution or just more pain?
I thrive on pain and don't like to gain
And i stop and think wow
As i think i'm stuck some how
Sorry my friend whats done is done
And sorry my friend its only just begun
To see it all end and flash in my hate
You arrive to find out your too late
With pools of blood around my wrists
Pools of sadness and balled fists
Time is up as i dissapear
Sorry my friend its me i fear
So i took action wrong or right
And gave up with all my might
Ten years from now i will be forgotten
And these pains of mine will never mend
And thanks my friend for the memories
This is my pay for all the fees
The fees of pain hurt and fear
Time is up as i dissapear

Penned by my hand on the 11th of Scarlatan, in the year 251 AF.