You I owe most of everyone in the world.
You loved me for who I was. you saw right through me, and didn't care about what people said about me.
You held me in your arms when I needed you, listened to me, made me feel wanted.
You even wanted to marry me.

You Rinoa, made me feel as if I really was the highest embodiement of Rajamalan life..

Around 15 years ago I made the biggest mistake of my life.
I killed you. I Killed you, and swore never to speak to you again..
And for what? So I could join Sartan's Order

Oh what a fool I was, and how sorry I am.
You left the next month with pain in your heart, a year later I left too, trying to run away from what I had done. Trying to live with myself, but my conscious still isn't clear.

I'm sorry Rinoa. I'm so sorry. Killing you was killing myself. It Was the biggest mistake of my life..
If only I didn't want to join the Order of Evil we would still be together, probably married by now.

I'm so sorry Rinoa.
I never stopped loving you, and I never stopped hating myself.


Love,
Borknagar Jukka



Penned by my hand on the 25th of Phaestian, in the year 274 AF.