Got out my bed the wrong side
The rain slowly begins to fall
It runs down the glass like my tears
I'm lying alone wondering why
Doesn't it work, nothing that I try
Ever seems to turn out fine
I'm alone with in my heart
My eyes cloud with the tears of hurt
All I wanted was to be loved, please?
Inside my heart can hardly breath . . .

All I wanted was to be happy
My hearts gon cold
Inside my lonely world
I'm wondering why?
I'm not even happy when I'm high
The rain carries on to fall
It fills me with the pain of failure
The emptiness of being alone

I cant see my self in the smashed mirror
All I see there is an unimportant nothing
An invisible insignificance dyeing inside
I'm lying asleep in my dreams
They remind me that I'm all alone
And there's nothing I can do
All I want is to be loved
By any one at all
Some one to catch my angel
As from heaven he slowly falls . . .

All I wanted was to be happy
My hearts gon cold
Inside my lonely world
I'm wondering why?
I'm not even happy when I'm high
The rain carries on to fall
It fills me with the pain of failure
The emptiness of being alone

I live on the wrong side of happiness
The rain comes down like mini bullets
Killing me like the tears on my cheeks
I'm standing alone wondering why
I was born at all, what's the point?
When I'm told I'm
A failure all my fu**ing life!
I slit my wrists to try and fly
I watch it bleed and slowly cry
I hate my self and I want to die . . .

All I wanted was to be happy
My hearts gon cold
Inside my lonely world
I'm wondering why?
I'm not even happy when I'm high
The rain carries on to fall
It fills me with the pain of failure
The emptiness of being alone

Self-mutilation is the only way of escape
Slashing and Drugs help when I'm depressed
Snort a white line of happiness
And then fall down dead
I cut my arms with a blade of steal
The Pain lets me touch humanity
No one ells can understand what I feel
As the Chemicals flood through my head
And my arms cry crimson tears of blood
Staining my bed a crimson Red . . .

All I wanted was to be happy
My hearts gon cold
Inside my lonely world
I'm wondering why?
I'm not even happy when I'm high
The rain carries on to fall
It fills me with the pain of failure
The emptiness of being alone

All I want is to be real . . .


Penned by my hand on the 7th of Valnuary, in the year 265 AF.